FOOD FOR THE SOUL
Week one is done! Since I am going to hold my self accountable in every way along this journey, I will report that I lost ZERO pounds the past 7 days. NADA…ZILCH….NONE…. Let me be honest here, as a red-blooded human being I considered 2 things this morning…#1. pretend today wasn’t Wednesday, and forget all about Word Press and #2. just to lie and say I lost 1 or 2 pounds. Then it hit me that I would only be cheating myself by avoiding the fact that this is going to truly be a work in progress. I can not believe how addicted I am to food, and this didn’t happen overnight, as I well know. I look at food as a way to comfort myself if I’m sad, or treat myself it I did something good. Kind of like a dog gets a treat when he’s done some amazing stunt. When I was younger there was a lot of emphasis placed on my weight. People who loved me meant well. They knew that as an overweight human being I would have more trouble fitting in, wouldn’t get the “boys” as easily as my thin friends, and the wanted me to begin the race on the same playing level as everyone else. They were absolutely correct, but as a young teenager I saw eating as a way to have some control over at least one choice in my life. What a skewed view that was….no body was going to tell me what to eat, for I was in control. I remember someone in my family telling me what long beautiful legs I had, and what an asset they would be if I could just lose a little around the waist and belly. OUCH! Growing up, I associated love with food. My mom was a wonderful cook, and she always said I was happiest when I sat down to the supper table. I know she meant no harm because it was true. I woke up every morning wondering what was for lunch at school and what was going to be for supper.
I remember about 5 years ago I sat in a meeting with a counselor who worked with me and her stomach was growling. It was 2 in the afternoon, and I asked her it she had eaten lunch yet, and she said “No, I forgot to eat.” I was in awe that someone had actually forgotten to eat….how was that possible? Of course I had to ask her how it was that she could forget to eat, which turned into a lengthy conversation about the difference between eating for comfort and eating for survival. She eats because she needs to survive, not because it’s noon and time for lunch. To this day I have never forgotten that conversation. She eats when her body tells her to eat, not when the clock tells her to eat. Fascinating! So as week 1 ends, and week 2 begins, I will document some of the positive things I have done this week, not dwell on the negative “loser” weaknesses 🙂 I walked 2 times this week, once with my 13 years old, who complained how the cold hurt her cheeks. That was a great walk because the more she complained, the more frustrated I became, and the faster I walked. I was almost in a full trot by the time I arrived home. I am drinking at least 24 ounces of water daily. This is BIG for me, as I have always joked that water “gave me gas!” I have been having McDonalds Fruit and Maple oatmeal (which is yummy since I didn’t know I liked oatmeal), for breakfast on the days I work instead of a doughnut (s), and I am trying to pare down my evening snacking.
So here’s to week 2, to more challenges and more little successes. I thought I would take it day by day, but quickly found out that I need to take it hour by hour, or minute by minute if need be. I am taking little baby steps…over and over…and hoping that each week my blogs will make a slow 100 degree turn to learning to live a healthier lifestyle. I watched a documentary the other day, and they suggested to post this motivational saying on your bathroom mirror,and look yourself in the eye 2 times a day and repeat: I ACCEPT MYSELF UNCONDITIONALLY RIGHT NOW!!!! What good advice to anyone going through any type of personal turmoil…not just trying to lose weight.
♥ baby steps baby steps baby steps♥
FOOD FOR THE BODY
ICED OATMEAL APPLESAUCE COOKIES
4 Tablespoon unsalted butter (melted)
1 cup packed light brown sugar
1/2 cup sugar
1/2 cup chunky applesauce
1 1/2 cups oatmeal
1 1/4 cups flour
1/4 tsp. baking powder
1/2 tsp. baking soda
1/4 tsp salt
1 cup golden raisins
Mix on low speed the butter and sugar until combined.
Add egg and applesauce, mix well until blended (2-3 min)
Mix in dry rest of the ingredients and mix well.
Bake at 350 degrees until golden and just set (about 13-15 min)
1 3/4 cups powdered sugar
3 Tablespoons pure maple syrup
3 Tablespoons water
Whick together and drizzle over cooled cookies